nothing left..
weird.
i've been working for this company for what, 2 months now... luckily i've met a few dozen people, and gained a number of friends..

BUT YOU ARE DIFFERENT.

not so different for me, but different when compared to others. certainly i've met a few before, who were just like you. maybe that's what makes you different from the people i met here. considering that i knew about this the first time we met. freaky huh? well it's sad for me, just so you know. coz the feelings i've been avoiding for the longest time.. the feelings that kept coming back to me over and over again.. the feelings that i wish i could never had.. and the feelings i thought i've forgotten.. THEY ALL CAME BACK.

was i wrong to say no and turn away from it all? yet i thought it was the best decision i've ever made.

so i told you everything. well not everything, but i'm pretty sure you got the rest of it. i'm happy that i did. it made me feel more comfortable i guess. but it also made me doubt myself.

was i really telling you the whole truth? or did i only tell you the things i wanted you to hear? things that I WANTED TO HEAR..

now i'm not really sure.

i just wish i never thought about it the day i first met you. i wish i never told her about you. coz you asking me all these questions, made me think of things i never wanted to deal with in the first place.

we're still friends, aren't we?
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i lost myself, the day that i found you; but now i found me, i lost you..